Disturbing Dream

Last night i had a dream that really disturbed me. I shot myself in the head somewhere in the neighborhood of six times. I remember clearly looking at the gun, chambering a round and pulling the trigger. Fully expecting to die as a result of the injury, it just kept going on. I even did it once with a two rounds of an AK-47. I know, it’s weird. I wonder what it means.

Trying to setup for future opportunities

It’s 2 in the morning and I'm sitting here browsing facebook pages of friends and wondering when am i going to taste a bit of success. The saying is that good things come to those who wait. Success is a slow process and needs to be nurtured. Patience is a virtue, right? Why is it i can’t see it sometimes. I desperately try to seperate monetary success with personal success, but it is so hard at times. I feel this pressure when I talk to people to be able to say that I have accomplished something. My life feels very short on accomplishments.

I will continue to improve myself and as a result my life. I hope to be able to buy a B&B in a couple of years. We’ll see if that’ll happen. I’m crossing my fingers though.

Random thoughts and feelings…

Till next time.