Signature for a consent form

I go to school with a guy, this guy seems like a pretty good guy. At least professionally, however delving into a more personal discussion, women, come to find out he prefers his women fairly young. Now I try very hard not to pass judgment on people before first having had a chance to talk to them. And try and gauge what kind of a person they may be. I personally am a pretty bad judge of character. This guy however has a pretyped consent form for the women he sleeps with that would be underage of consent, i.e. eighteen. This to me is fairly despicable, I would not consider myself morally superior person I have sinned, however don’t believe this to be acceptable by any means. The guy is thirty-two years of age.

The only reason that I brought this issue up is, I’m sitting here at the library and saw this cute girl. She looked to be somewhere in the neighborhood of twelve or thirteen, but was dressed as if she was sixteen or older. I have to say I felt a little guilty about admiring her body.

 

This is a really weird post for me. Not sure what to make of it. Oh well. Till next time.

What a tender's job is

There is this guy that I go to school who can be a total douche bag. He’s a good worker but he is just really fucking dense. Today we had a disagreement about what a tenders’ job is supposed to be. I wanted him to know that my job is not to hold his fucking ass up on a mid-water project! So every time I felt him take a strain I would give him one foot. I like to feel my divers at the end of my line/hose. He kept signaling me to take up his slack. Well on an older project that we had done that had meant to bring him up like an elevator. I got tired of bearing the brunt of his weight, and let him go. Arghhh… then he has the audacity to come out of the water and slap me. If I wasn’t at school and cared about my future here, I swear I would’ve punched him, if not pushed him back in the water. But that would’ve been highly dangerous for my career at the school. I have to deal with this fucker for the next four months….. This is my rant for now.

Second Guessing Myself

So there are a few of us at school that are a little miffed about the way the school handled the funding situation. Just to give you a little background on what transpired…

About two and a half weeks ago, the school apparently had all of our financial paperwork for the guaranteed government loans rejected, due to the wrong information entered on the applications. They promised the students more money than was actually going to be delivered. The majority of the class felt the sting of this error in various different ways. Ultimately we all have to cover this new and added expense/raise of tuition out of our pockets. Another student and I got together and discussed what had happened and came to a consensus that it was really shady in the manner that this was “resolved”. The original copies of our diving certificates will be withheld until we meet our financial obligation “per school policy”.

We would like to see the school take some of the responsibility of they’re mistake. The response about quoting school policy is just plain shady. So we have gotten together and decided to write a petition to the school expressing our dissatisfaction about this situation. I am a little nervous about doing this since I am the one that typed up the letter and chose the contents of it. After Googling it I came across some examples and I don’t feel my letter is strong enough. I know I’m just second guessing myself. I am happy about the way it sounds…. For someone that has never created one before, I believe it covers the important aspects of the situation and the grievances. I know I have the support of the majority of the class; they have to sign off on it.

Here is the contents of the letter, minus the school name. I just don’t trust you good ole internet savvy people.

 

“We the class of 106-06, come to you with a concern. Two and a half weeks ago it was brought to our attention that the financial numbers for funding have changed. Specifically the guaranteed government financing; we were promised more money than will be actually be delivered. The explanation that was given is that <School Name> financial aid officer had entered the wrong numbers; the numbers entered had been for the wrong calendar year. The 2007 numbers were entered into the application process and not the 2006 numbers. The financing that we had agreed to and signed on for before we had enrolled in <School Name> had changed in the middle of schooling, therefore creating a hardship on us, the students, throwing off the budgets that we had meticulously constructed and planned out, during which we put our lives on hold for the next seven months.  By attending <School Name> full time it makes it nearly impossible to work during the week while attending school and planning to succeed. The solution that was provided to us by the financial aid officer was less than satisfactory; it placed the burden of financial responsibility on the students for the error that was made in the financial paperwork. Also a part of the solution that was presented to us was that our original diving certificates would be with held until we meet our financial obligation, “per school policy”, while extending the time and amount of our financial obligation beyond the original contractual date that was agreed upon prior to enrollment and attendance of <School Name>. We come to you as a class with another solution. Have the burden of financial responsibility shifted to <School Name>, per the result of the errors in the financial paperwork having to be resubmitted.

 

Attached is a petition with the names of everyone who has read this letter and agreed to the solution, all of the students have also included an explanation on what hardship they had to endure so that they could continue to attend <School Name>. As always, your time and cooperation in this matter is greatly appreciated.

 

Signed,

The Class of 106 – 06”

Taking Inititive on Petition

About two and half weeks ago, funding for school had changed by eight hundred and seventy five dollars in the schools favor. When you have twenty-two students that add up, I have become a little irked by that. The thing that irks me the most is by far the fact that the school is going to withhold my original diving certificates until I meet my financial obligations, “per school policy”. When the financial aid officer said that to me, it seemed to galvanize me into taking action, in this case it’s going to be a petition that the whole/majority of the class will agree on. I’m hoping that I left the petition letter open ended enough so that we can negotiate it if necessary. We’ll see. I start the circulation of the petition today. I’m starting to get a little nervous, because, I’ve never done this and it’s actually pretty exciting. Especially since I don’t really expect the school to do anything, however, I expect to raise a stink enough to let them know that the bullshit that they tried to shovel was just that. It’s about principal. Almost kinda personal because I truly believe that the school really underestimates the ability and/or motivation of most the students, plus the director of training is kinda a grade A asshole. Completely arrogant and hypocritical, but in reality, this change in funding has affected a lot of students. And I would like to know that they don’t get fucked. Money is money. I may be taking it a little more personally than I should, however, that can be a eschewed view, it’s passion,

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Moving on

Man, I thought it would never come. I finally got a message from Randy, and he’s moved on. I’ve known the guy for eight years, and I’m glad it didn’t come to an end over this. I was wondering what was going to come of this whole fiasco. I am glad to know that he has moved on. I just know that things aren’t going to be the same as they where for me. There is a… ah hell I don’t know. Man, my sister is right… I do sound like a little bitch at times. I’m not trying to whine. I’m slowly trying to get my head in order so that I don’t continue to be so needy. Man, with danny’s birthday party coming up, I was starting to wonder what the athmosphere was going to be like, between randy and i. Not that I was really worried about since I know the shit between he and I would never have interfered with the festivities for danny.

 

So I’m sitting here at Starbucks killing some time till my car gets out of the shop. I’m going to try and get the check engine light fixed permenantly. I’m going to need to have my car in relaiable condition for school. I can’t afford to miss any classes. It’s way too important and expensive. I was looking through the highline community college catalog and saw something really fun to take for the summer… Whitewater rafting for only $79! I believe that’s cheaper than going on your own, I haven’t looked into as of yet. It suggested bringing a wetsuit. Since I’m already going to have a wetsuit for the diving school, why the hell not!? Unforunately it falls on the weekend I’m supposed to go to dallas for danny’s surprise birthday party. It’s my backup plan.

 

I just hope edesapa is really going to help me to finance this school thing. I really am getting really excited about getting this ball rolling on the diving school thing. I can’t tell you how eager I am to get out of the restaurant business. Ready to start making a reliable and consistent paycheck. Something I can depend on and not have to worry about what kind mood people are in. or myself for that matter.

 

On another note, there’s this girl I’m interested in at work. She’s from new york. Has a nice body from what I can tell, and a really good personality. The only draw back is that she’s got a kid. Maybe not necessarily a drawback. But I told myself I would try not date people with. Anyhow, that’s all for now.

 

Astrology and drinking, i'm an Aquarius

ARIES (Mar 21- Apr 19)
Drinking style: Impulsive Aries people like to party and sometimes don't know when to call it a night. Their competitive streak makes them prone to closing-time shot contests. They're sloppy, fun drunks, and they get mighty flirty after a couple tipples. Getting Aries people drunk is a good way to get what you want out of them, should other methods fail. Aries can become bellicose when blotto, but they will assume that whatever happened should be forgiven (if not forgotten) by sunrise. They can be counted on to do the same for you -- so long as you haven't gone and done anything really horrible to them last night, you sneaky Gemini.

TAURUS (Apr 20 - May 20)
Drinking style: Taurus prefers to drink at a leisurely pace, aiming for a mellow glow rather than a full-on zonk. Since a truly intoxicated Taurus is a one-person stampede, the kind of bull-in a-china-shop inebriate who spills red wine on white carpets and tells fart jokes to employers, the preference for wining and dining(or Bud and buddies) to body shots and barfing is quite fortunate for the rest of us. This is not to say that the Bull is by any means a teetotaler -- god, no. A squiffy Taurus will get, er, gregarious(full of loudmouth soup, some would say) and is extremely amusing to drag to a karaoke bar when intoxicated.

GEMINI (May 21 - Jun 21)
Drinking style: Gemini's can drink without changing their behavior much-- they're so naturally chatty and short-attention-spanned that it's just hard to tell sometimes. They can amaze you by conversing with finesse and allusion, then doing something unbelievable in an extremely advanced state of intoxication, like puking in your shoe. Gemini's possess the magic ability to flirt successfully (and uninfuriatingly, which is very tricky) with several people at once. They like to order different cocktails every round -- repetition is boring -- and may create a theme (like yellow drinks: beer, sauvignon blanc and limoncello) for their own amusement.

CANCER (Jun 22 - Jul 22)
Drinking style: Cancer is a comfort drinker -- and an extra wine with dinner or an after-work beer or six can be extra comforting, can't it, Cancer darling? Like fellow water signs Scorpio and Pisces, Crabs must guard against lushery. Cancers are brilliant at ferreting out secret parties and insinuating themselves on VIP lists -- and, in true Hollywood style, Cancers are never really drunk; instead, they get "tired and emotional" (read: weepy when lubricated). But there's nothing better than swapping stories (and spit) over a few bottles of inky red wine with your favorite Cancer. Even your second-favorite Cancer will do. The sign also rules the flavor vanilla, and you'd be adored if you served up a vanilla vodka and soda.

LEO (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
Drinking style: Leo likes to drink and dance -- they're often fabulous dancers, and usually pretty good drinkers as well, losing their commanding dignity and turning kittenish. Of course, they're quite aware they're darling - Leos will be Leos, after all. They generally know their limit, probably because they loathe losing self-control. When they get over-refreshed, expect flirting to ensue -- and perhaps not with the one who brought them. But Leo's not the type to break rules even when drunk, so just try to ignore it (try harder, Cancer) and expect a sheepish (and hung over) Lion to make it up to you the next day.

VIRGO (Aug 23 - Sept 22)
Drinking style: Cerebral Virgos are compelled to impose order onto their bender. Their famously fussy quest for purity could lead to drinking less than other signs, sure -- but it could also lead to drinking booze neat, to sucking down organic wine or just to brand loyalty. They rarely get fully shellacked -- but, oh, when they do! Virgo's controlled by the intellect, but there's an unbridled beast lurking within, and they let it loose when walloped. It's dead sexy (and surprisingly unsloppy). As one Virgo friend used to declare, "I'm going to drink myself into a low level of intelligence tonight." A toast to the subgenius IQ!

LIBRA (Sept 23 - Oct 23)
Drinking style: "I'm a social drinker," slurs Libra, "it's just that I'm so damn social." Libra loves nothing more than to party, mingle and meet new people. Whether dipped in favor of Good Libra (with Insta-Friend device set to "on") or on the Wicked Libra side (they are very flirty when bored), the Scales can really work a room. Charming as they are, Libras are notoriously honest when drunk, however, which can get them into all sorts of trouble -- including wearing their wobbly boots waaaay too early in the evening, flirting with their friend's beau or even blacking out the night's events entirely. Oops!

SCORPIO (Oct 24 - Nov 21)
Drinking style: Don't ever tell Scorpios they've had enough, for they'll smirk at you and quietly but intentionally keep tippling till they're hog-whimpering drunk, out of 100-proof spite. Scorpios like to drink, and screw you if you have a problem with that. Most of them see the sauce as something to savor in itself, and not as a personality-altering tool - though if depressed, self-loathing Scorps seek total obliteration. But generally, they're fascinating drinking pals, brilliant conversationalists and dizzying flirts. They also remember everything -- especially what you did when you were blitzed. Only drink with a Scorpio who likes you.

SAGITTARIUS (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Drinking style: In vino veritas -- and, for Sagittarius, in booze blurtiness: When buttered, they'll spill all your secrets and many of their own. Tactlessness aside, Sagittarius is just plain fun to drink with. This is a sign of serious partying (what else would you expect from the sign of Sinatra, Keith Richards, the Bush twins and Anna Nicole Smith?). They're the people who chat up everyone in the room, then persuade the entire crowd to travel somewhere else -- like a nightclub, or a playground, or Cancun. Good-natured hi-jinks are sure to ensue (including a high possibility of loopy groping; spontaneous Sag is a brilliant booty call).

CAPRICORN (Dec 22 - Jan 19)
Drinking style: Capricorn is usually described as practical, steadfast, money-hungry and status-thirsty -- no wonder they get left off the astrological cocktail-party list. But this is the sign of David Bowie and Annie Lennox, not to mention Elvis. Capricorn is the true rock star: independent, powerful and seriously charismatic, not too eager to please. And if they make money being themselves, who are you to quibble? But just like most rock stars, they're either totally on or totally off, and they generally need a little social lubricant to loosen up and enjoy the after party, especially if they can hook up with a cute groupie.

AQUARIUS (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
Drinking style: Aquarius and drinking don't go together that well (except for water, that is). They have an innate tendency toward know-it-allism, and if they get an idea while sizzled, they're more stubborn than a stain or a stone. If they're throwing a party or organizing an outing, however, they're too preoccupied with their duties to get combative and they make perfectly charming drunks in that case. Fortunately, they're usually capital drink-nursers. They also make the best designated drivers (if you can get them before they start raising their wrist) Aquarius is fascinated by drunk people and capable of holding interesting conversations with soused strangers while sober.

PISCES (Feb 19 - Mar 20)
Drinking style: If you're a Pisces, you've probably already heard that you share a sign and an addictive personality -- with Liz Taylor, Liza Minelli and Kurt Cobain. Not only do Pisces like to lose themselves in the dreamy, out-there feeling that only hooch can give, but they build up a mighty tolerance fast. Who needs an expensive date like that? On the other hand, they're fabulously enchanting partners, whether in conversation or in crime. With the right Pisces, you can start out sharing a pitcher of margaritas and wind up in bed together for days. The phrase "addictive personality" can be read two ways you know

Career as a diver

Recently I looked into a diving school in north Seattle. I’ve always enjoyed the ocean. So I was thinking this may be a good way to make a living. It would be hard work, a little tedious I have to say, since the job that the school seems to be able to guarantee me is working directly supporting oil platforms. Whether it be repairing, inspecting, or building. Now I know this is not the only kind of job available to a diver, but for the moment and the foreseeable future, is the one in most demand. Hence, pays the most money. Now this is the draw for me, the money. I’ve been working in the service industry for eight of my ten years on the work force. I have an easy going personality and don’t tend to let things get to me. I have been working in restaurants for most of that time, with a small stint in a hotel. Of the two sides I have to say I enjoyed the hospitality side better. The pay was better, but I found I enjoyed the environment better. Restaurants just have too much drama. It’s also almost a dead end job, the fact that you can control your income is what keeps my in it. I am ready for more of a challenge. Some people enjoy doing jobs that won’t challenge them, or should I say blue collar labor; but not I. I don’t want to become less intelligent as I get older. As long as I have to go to work to pay bills I want to be challenged by my job, or what’s the point. In hospitality it had the potential, as move up through the ranks, of course. Now to the reason for this thought. I was reading the jobs section of the Sunday paper and it said that jobs that will be in demand three to five years down the road will be computer jobs, due to the graying baby boomer population. And of course health care to help to take care of this segment of our population.

Since I was fifteen I’ve been into computers. Friends and I would setup token ring networks to play video games (at the time cat5 network equipment was out of our reach). I currently and running a Win 2003 server box in my apartment, with the intention of setting up a way of accessing all the information on my storage drive, across the internet from anywhere, as easily as possible. Mainly through the web with the normal other means that come with that ftp and RDP. I’ve also got a domain setup but my lack of experience in this part is hindering me from fully integrating it into my laptop. I just end up with two profiles. Both my sister and my dad have said why don’t you back into the computer field? We’ll my response to them is that; there are too many people in that field. It is really saturated. Everybody and they’re father has an MCSE. I believe DeVry is way overpriced in what they offer. I don’t want to spend $30,000, on something and find out that it’s not what I paid for. In 2001 I got out of the computer field because of the dot.com bust. Fell back on my experience in the service industry. Then I tried to join the navy, that didn’t work out. Hence because of that I got really depressed and it was a downward spiral, I lost my car, totally fucked up my credit. Which I am paying dearly for now…

Something just occurred to me! I hadn’t realized or rather noticed this about myself before, I’m playing victim! I’m trying to find reasons as to why I’m not responsible. Ah-ha! This is why I moved to Seattle in the first place to grow personally and professionally.

Anyhow, back to the point of this post, ultimately I’m worried that by becoming a diver in that I just simply, won’t be challenged to the degree that I want to be. Now a challenge doesn’t have to be just mental, but I want to be able to exercise my brain. Doing the same thing over and over is no challenge. It’s repition.  However I think I know enough of what the computer industry will entail, and I enjoy that work a lot.

 

Pros of diving:

• Travel
• Not stuck in an office day in, day out
• No rush hour traffic to have to deal with
• The money
• Excitement
• Opportunity to work in varying locales
• Working with my hands

 

Cons of diving:

• Out of touch with the world for weeks at a time
• Difficult on personal relationships
• Possibility of mundane tedious manual labor (non-challenging)
• Working with hicks

 

Pros of computer work:

·         Having to fix finicky technology (Hence the challenge half)

·         Money

·         Ability to have a personal life

·         Weekends off (most)

·         Stability

·         Playing with new technologies trying to integrate them into the buisness

·         Working with intelligent people

·         Corporate America (if you find a company you can mesh well with. Very difficult)

 

Cons of computer work:

• Corporate politics
• Call center work
• Corporate America (this and politics could be the same)
• Working with idiots

 

 

I guess ultimately I just need to make a decision. I’m just worried that this diving thing won’t pan out the way I am picturing it. Now don’t get me wrong I am not disillusioning myself here, I know it’s not going to be some walk in the park. But this is something I’m going to be doing for a while, not necessarily my whole life but, five to ten years at the minimum. However it is really exciting in its own right. My uncertainty stems from my past at making bad decisions, and not following through with things. But once again that is why I moved to seattle. To clear my head, and to grow, I should’ve done this long ago.

Visited the KCLS, did some soul searching

I got off work today and decided that I didn’t want to sit at home and stare at my walls or go down to the beach at that time of day. So I decided to go to the library. I was just planning on doing some research for my quest into credit repair. Seems that the subject is pretty easy after doing some initial research, since this is my first visit to an actual Seattle area public library, I have to say that I am pretty impressed with the King County Library System. You can have books shipped to your home library from anywhere in the system. I put on hold nine different items. A couple of I hope Hungarian language CD’s.

 

Since I moved up here I have been having this urge to get back in touch with my Hungarian heritage. Both my parents are natively from Hungary, my sister and I are first in our family to be American nationals. Since my grandmother died three, no, four years ago this mother’s day. I have come to realize that if I don’t take an active role in trying to relearn my language now, before I become too “busy” with my life, there’s a good chance I never will. So as a consequence of that I have decided, I have partied most of my twenties away and now am ready to start my life and making a difference in this world. To also stop considering myself a victim, life is what I make of it.

 

You know, I was thinking of this while I was at work today, I really do admire my father. Not only is he a good man, granted a little crude around the edges at times (ex-army), he has some of the best character that I have come across to date. Mind you I work in a restaurant/bar, so I have seen my share of shady people, also worked with a few of them. Anyhow back to the point, my father, his integrity is excellent, and he always has a different perspective on things. I don’t always see eye-to-eye with him. But in the end he is still there. You know growing up as a kid, i wanted to be accepted. My parents, because of their immigrant background, tended to dress me and my sister in traditional Hungarian dress. The getups could be pretty tacky! I mean I had rainbow suspenders! Oh if the pictures came out at my wedding I’d still be a little embrassed, but not really. This was back before the rainbow symbolized the pride colors. Ever since I’ve tried so hard to be accepted and to please people, moving to the northwest has helped me to understand what kind of a person I am. Unfortunately, I can be an easily influenced person. And this is were I see how I want to be more like my father. He doesn’t care what other people think of him. Goes about his business and only when you communicate to him what you feel does he understand. Or acknowledge. I used to think this was an aggravating trait since, I tried to get everybody to see things my way. But because of two people, my father and Bryan, both being very like the other, stubborn. I have learned not to change people but to appreciate them for who they are and what they have done.

 

I have done many stupid things in my life so far, and no doubt I will do many more. But the stupidest thing I have done so far, actually it’s two, got onto drugs, and tried to fit in and please everyone. Granted my moving up to the northwest was a half bone-headed maneuver, as in the fact I didn’t plan things out the way I should’ve. I wanted to get away from, not texas, but sadly Randy. The route in life that he was traveling was just not the same way that I wanted to go. I’ve realized sometime ago that I don’t want to do the drugs anymore. I really miss the outdoors. Growing up in cali., you did outdoor activities. Other than the horrible air pollution, the climate was absolutely amazing. Come on isn’t that why everyone wants to move to Southern California? I understand why there are so many fat people in Texas, you don’t want to go outside. It’s fucking HOT! I remember working at Stream in Carrolton, I was driving this 1980 Honda Civic Wagon “the Beater”, it was the summer of 1999, and we had sixty days straight of at least 100 degrees. You don’t want to go outside in that weather. Who would?! So I didn’t do much outdoors there, nor does anyone else really in the state. Why you ask, did I mention how hot it is?! In that kind of a climate you sit around inside in the air conditioning and find things to do to occupy your time. For me and my close friends it was smoking pot. Hell, I was a doing it daily for a while there. I mean I was a pot head. Now I’m no, saint, by any means. Some of my best friends are still daily smokers… but I want to know what’s beyond that foggy haze. That also kinda brings me full circle on the Randy thing, he was headed down a path with much more serious drugs. For him pot turned out to be, the gateway drug. I never wanted to know anybody who could get meth/ice. For obvious reasons… it’s not that I didn’t like to have a good time, I never wanted to lose control! There were a couple of times when I was on the verge. It was thanks to my boss at my frist hotel job that helped me to see that. That shit, fucks with your head way too much. At least it did mine. I never saw it as a challenge to see how long I could stay up. I remember back in my younger days, what I happened. Hell, I pawned my N64, that I wanted so bad, and played so much for the drug. Lost a really decent job… was on a really steep downhill path. I had different reasons for doing it then. You know, somehow the outcome ended up being the same. Well, almost the second time.

 

I have a pretty ambitious agenda for myself, in the coming months, well ambitious for what I’m used to. Since I really have no T.V., or any real friends, Zynnya, has given me an idea. Why don’t I join some kind of club and do races. She suggested that I do running, but, I’ve never cared for it. Regardless of how good it is for you. I’m worried I’ll screw my ankles up, and I’ll be handicapped in someway, way too young. Also the fact, what’s the point. It takes so long for you to get somewhere! I much prefer bicycling. You can really cover some distance/see more, and in the end I feel accomplished, which is the important part, no? I’m going to join a bicycling club as soon as I get one. Which by the way is really high on my priority list. I am going to take up running for a lack of better options for the time being. Before I get distracted by some other thought here is my personal agenda for the coming months;

 

• Complete a 5k run or a comparable bike race.
• Clean up my credit. So that it is no longer an issue in job selections. The hold up should be my lack of skills or what not, not my financial history!!!
• To lose most if not all the fat around my mid-section. Or rather get in shape/lean.
• Start college, right now it’s looking as if I’m going to take Chinese studies. (I love to hear mandarin Chinese. It flows really beautifully. And it’s the future)
• If not start studing Chinese. Maybe diving.

 

I have to say after reading this list, it sucks as a list, but, it is something for me to see and commit down to “paper”. The worst one on this list, I have to say, has to be the credit repair. That is going to be the most discouraging. Since I am not exactly sure what to expect from this process. To be physically healthy you have to be mentally healthy. That means being positive.

 

Till next time